How can a Mother put into words everything she wants to say on a day like today? I could go on for hours, of all the wonderful memories: of the painfully hard days; or of the astounding strength that God gives when we feel like we just cant keep going. I could thank every one of you who has taken the time to message us or post on our Facebook walls and I can honestly say, this journey would be so much harder without the love and support you all have sent our way.... Thank you SO much! I'm so blessed with amazing friends and family. I could talk about how I thought we would face this day with the hope of another child whether through adoption or pregnancy, and how hard it was to watch another baby join our heavenly crew a couple months ago. There are so many things I want to say... But to summarize my thoughts (as best as a wordy girl can 
:-P)... I do not regret one day with you in my life Zechariah. Although the day you left was the hardest day of my life, those 287 days I carried you were among the best. I am beyond privileged to know that God picked me to carry you, be your Mommy and provider every single day of your life. Thank you for teaching me so much about love, about how my Heavenly Father loves me, how I should love those around me in their pain, and most of all you taught me what joy and hope awaits us in Heaven. Thank you for showing me in a very real manner how verses like this one below that I had memorized and heard my whole life, are sooo much more true then we realize. Its one thing to hear and know it, its a whole different thing to walk through it and experience it.
:-P)... I do not regret one day with you in my life Zechariah. Although the day you left was the hardest day of my life, those 287 days I carried you were among the best. I am beyond privileged to know that God picked me to carry you, be your Mommy and provider every single day of your life. Thank you for teaching me so much about love, about how my Heavenly Father loves me, how I should love those around me in their pain, and most of all you taught me what joy and hope awaits us in Heaven. Thank you for showing me in a very real manner how verses like this one below that I had memorized and heard my whole life, are sooo much more true then we realize. Its one thing to hear and know it, its a whole different thing to walk through it and experience it.
"Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me." 2 Corinthians 12:8-9
Ill close with a poem I wrote for Zechariah's first Birthday, thanks for those of you who love us so much that you will read this whole thing lol
Zechariah's Birthday Poem:
Happy Birthday with Jesus, my sweet baby boy.
Just to know you are in Heaven fills my heart with joy.
Just to know you are in Heaven fills my heart with joy.
You know perfect love and happiness, you shed no tears.
You are safely home with Jesus; how could I wish you here!
You are safely home with Jesus; how could I wish you here!
Though we miss you so much and think of you each day;
We know you have it better there than if you had stayed.
We know you have it better there than if you had stayed.
Yes, we still cry and weep when we think of you.
Yet, to know you are safe with Jesus is a prayer come true.
Yet, to know you are safe with Jesus is a prayer come true.
I know your day will be better than any party we could throw.
Here we will celebrate you every day, just so you know.
Here we will celebrate you every day, just so you know.
Happy birthday, Zechariah James, we are so glad we had you.
Someday soon we will be with you, somewhere beyond the blue.
Someday soon we will be with you, somewhere beyond the blue.
